Saturday, February 16, 2013

Heartbreak

Today's post is a hard one to write. I lost my father yesterday morning. He was in hospice and we knew it was coming, but it was still too soon.

My heart hurts as I look through his medical records from the VA and realize just how much he hid from us about his physical and psychological issues. My father never found peace. He roamed and wandered in an effort to find that and never did.

As a part time parent (he only had me every summer and every other Christmas and spring break) he did his best to spend time with me. I remember on more than one occasion where he stopped by the school to check on me and my grades, even though he lived 9 hours away.

He wasn't perfect, but he was who he was and our approval wasn't needed. Guess I didn't stray too far from that ideology.

Good-bye Daddy, I hope where ever you end up that you find peace and comfort.

Monday, February 4, 2013

Winter Neutral

Well the cabin fever seems to have abated a bit. Got my football fix yesterday watching the Super Bowl. Now life settles in to it's routine again. Well, as routine as my life gets anyways. The job is still going awesome and I'm really enjoying getting involved in the organization as a whole. Starting to cut my teeth in research and am definitely looking forward to the opportunity that has presented itself.  They say you can't change the world by yourself, but you can change your corner of it. If that's the case, the company I'm working for is a great vehicle in which to do that.

Have dialed in that I want to go back for my Ph.D in a few years so I can teach. I love having the nursing students on the floor putting all the pieces of the puzzle together and then seeing their faces light  up when they get it.

Commuting stinks. I think that's the only downside of all of this. Granted, being away from my family makes me appreciate them more. However, I really miss seeing them get all silly like they did yesterday morning. There was a huge box on the front porch leftover from a delivery that we hadn't broken down yet. Tanith, Harlee, A.J., and Courtney proceeded to spend the next hour coming up with ways to use said box to entertain themselves while Kyle and I were making goodies for the football game. As much as I say I'm ready for them to leave the nest, the house will be really quiet when they do.

Found a new indie author on the Kindle last month and found his blog this morning: http://richardraley.blogspot.com/
He definitely has some interesting characters in his King Henry series. If foul language offends you don't read it. If you're like me and it doesn't faze you one way or another, find him on Amazon and give him a try. Quick reading, but enjoyable and will definitely elicit more than a few chuckles. He also has book reviews for 2012 releases that are to the point and helpful.

Ok, I guess I've kicked around on here long enough. Time to go run errands and be somewhat productive today.